Love lost only to be regained? (Not part of the story)

They say that you can't have shadows without light.

I've kept the memory of your voice since that day.

I wish to be strong.

The finger that snuffs the candle

can feel the soul in the heart of the flames.

I explode deep inside.

Crimson love scorches my heart.

If I wander against the wind, I'll weep.

But I'll endure my pain for I believe in the future.

In what's ahead and beyond.

The ruined sky is our bond.

I will destroy these lies and falsehood that assail us.

Should this battle be for naught,

I will journey to what's ahead and beyond.

Ch. 4 Battle Scars

We rejoin our hero on his journey to see he is doing well. In fact, he's excelling at his endeavors towards his goals. He's found a new circle of friends, there's not many but they're loyal and that's all you can ask for in a companion. Now, just because he's doing well does not mean our hero has won the war against the forces of evil in his life. Those who wish to harm are always working,scheming, and plotting on new and unspeakable ways to unravel our hero at his seams. They wish to rattle his very core and push him to the brink of self destruction. But lately they've been quiet, he remains alert, vigilant, unfuckwittable! Even though all is calm our hero feels the damage left from his foes in past battles still ripping away at his essence. The hero feels his sanity slowly drifting further and further from him. His thoughts are sporadic. Those who see him have no clue what's wrong. He looks fine but on the inside he is ever so steadily decaying...rotting... Becoming this being of nothing but pain and anger. His rage becomes the only feeling besides heartache that he recognizes. All he wishes is that someone would notice his pain and help him stop it. He's tried it all and he can't stop his internal bleeding, his heart is leaking and it hurts. Those who see his pain driven rages call him a monster. Just remember even the monster under your bed may have been someone just like you at one point and became twisted into a being frightening enough to earn the title "Monster". Our hero is fighting a battle within himself and it is against hi most powerful adversary yet: his heart. He's fighting against the pain left behind from the betrayals of his past foes. I just hope he can prevail this time. The world needs him more than he knows..

Ch. 3 Internal bleeding

His eyes are blue as sky yet lately there is a deadness in them, as if to say his gaze could kill all who deserved to be penetrated by his cold stare. He's been on his pilgrimage for a year now and he feels like he knows nothing of what he set out to learn. The hero's goals were noble to begin with. He may not be as kindred as he was before but he still wishes to free himself from the shackles of his own subconscious and be one with himself and help all those who feel just like him. He wanted to be nice, he honestly tried to be someone whom everyone loved, but many took advantage of this naïveté. Each time someone betrayed him it felt like a dagger in his very soul. Scarring him and twisting his feelings and beliefs more and more each time. He eventually stopped wanting to be loved by his people and decided if they would never accept him then he would forever be alone and he gave up on finding love and happiness from within other individuals. Unfortunately for our hero, loneliness is a pain that can only be rivaled by betrayal and heartbreak. His heart has felt strange ever since the woman he lovED left. He's felt like his insides are rotting. The love turned to heart ache. He tried it all but he can't stop this metaphorical internal bleeding. His heart is leaking and from that wound is where his very essence is seeping out. The kindred spirit became the embodiment of Rage. The troubled boy is now an angry and hurt man. He thinks to himself, "why should I care? Why should it be me who has to save them? They didn't care when I needed them." Little does our hero know, the loneliness, pain, and rage he's built up over time is the source of his power. All the people who wronged him have helped to create the person he's become; An angry, rage filled man hell bent on making sure everyone gets what they honestly deserve. The people he's met and the places he's been are all what made him the man he so proudly is. So remember when you look into those cold piercing blue eyes that behind all that hate, sadness, and pain is a glimmer of something bright... Something bright? Deep down in those eyes something familiar grows, something people haven't seen in his eyes in years..         Hope

A break from the story....

Hey guys i know it's been awhile but trust me when I say I've been writing a lot of different entries in our heroes story which I'll be sharing soon

I want to clear one thing up. Just because I refer to him as a hero doesn't make him right. I wouldn't want anyone to look up to him EXCEPT those who have felt what he feels in my stories, the people who are struggling. I'm not saying that all those who feel the way he feels should resort to the methods he uses, but I am saying it helps. That's why I call him a hero, because everyday for the last few months I had been battling depression... Then one day The hero emerged and continues to save my life everyday. These stories are all true and they are the only events of this life worth telling. Again I say it, they may not be the best methods but they do ease the pain that is known as reality

Chapter 2: The Temptress and The Beginnings of The Rager

He wakes up. Another sleepless night. He spends most of his time brooding, he is unhappy for many reasons but number one being the temptress. Now be warned the Temptress is a formidable adversary even for our hero. She is beautiful, more beautiful than any other woman this side of the cosmos. Her hair is long, curly, and beautiful. Her eyes are a magnificent shade of brown and slightly angled to give her an oriental look. Her nose is cute and button like. Her body? Amazing. She is the truest form of beauty our hero has ever seen. But, unbeknownst to him she underneath all that beauty is the ugliest being alive. She is heartless and treacherous creature of the night. She sees our hero's inner strength and desires it for herself. She seduces him, they begin a cordial relationship and after so long they went off into separate directions.. Time passes and our hero is once again in the crosshairs of the deadly Temptress, she once again seduces him only this time our hero lowers his guard in hopes that their love is as true he feels it is. Seeing her opportunity the Temptress struck! She went for the kill but she knew she could not physically hurt the hero. Instead, she attacked not only his mind, pride, and Heart she decided to destroy our hero's will as well. After destroying our hero's soul and feasting upon his anguish she vanishes, moving on to the next fool who will allow her to devour his every emotion. This fortunately is not where the story ends. The hero falls into the most eerie and unstable depths of his now fragmented mind. His soul is tattered, and he has no clue how to fix it. He knows based on others recollections that he is nothing like the man he was before his battle with the Temptress. He decides to begin a journey to retrieve all of which the temptress stole. Allow me to remind you of the fact our hero is not thinking clearly. He knows he must get back the parts of his soul which were stolen, but he doesn't know how. In an attempt to ease hi mind he tries his hand at drugs, he starts small with marijuana and eventually finds himself doing ecstasy and acid, he likes the highs. He always drank alcohol but never in the amounts he recently has. It took him months of this before one night while laying on a strangers bathroom floor both drunk and high that he realized who he was and what his true mission is. Our hero has finally stumbled upon his destiny: he must stop this endless search for feelings he knows are lost to the temptress. He embraces his newfound coldness. Only after doing so will he be ready for the foes that are plotting against him. The Temptress believed the Heroes power came from all that which she had stolen. Little does she know that the hero's emotions were the only things holding him back from awakening his true powers. His disregard for all who stand against him is his new strength. He no longer cares about what his actions will cause to happen around him! He is more powerful than ever before! But is all that power really worth sacrificing his emotions? He scares all those whom are close to him. He is now more isolated than ever. His strength is enough to protect the rest of the universe...but without his emotions can he save himself?

Our hero is gaining strength all while losing his sense of identity, as he grows colder he loses more and more of who he truly is and is changed into a being of cold, heartless anger. The locals have begun to distance themselves out of fear. They have created a name they call him when he isn't near. "The Rager" 

A legendary 2014

I plan on continuing this blog but I'm making changes to my own life so I hope you guys will hopefully relate and even be able to feel better about your own problems as I work through mine. I'm no longer the boy who takes all the pain and mistreatment in stride. I'm angry and I've been trying to pretend I'm not. I've never lied to you guys but as you guessed I'm done trying to keep myself in check and behave. I'm 19 years old and I've been taking care of myself since I'm 11. I don't live under my parents roof so I'll be damned if I'm gonna take any more shit. I will no longer be telling you guys "Tales". I'm telling you guys Legends from now on. I am legendary.