Even with the 3

Will I still feel dead inside,

Money, power, respect.

I've decided that's all that matters, I spent a good amount of time trying to see life from a different less cold and dreary perspective and it got me nowhere just annoyed by the futility of my own actions. I can honestly say those 3 things are what matter. No leaders or great men accomplished what they wanted for love or feelings. They did it for themselves. For the only feeling that matters and that's power and wealth, so much so you can't help but command the respect of others. Its not he who acknowledges everyone that gets noticed it is he is acknowledged by everyone. So therefore I'm basically saying don't ask me for shit cause I ain't got it, For you at least. And "don't quote me boy cause I ain't said shit."

Designed for what purpose?

A crack here, a crack there, it still works right? At the very least you can say its performing most of the necessary functions in the proper manner. Even if its not working at 100% or its not completely complete, its still a work in progress you can always fix it some say you can get a new one but all the important stuff is on yours. There's nothing wrong with a factory reset either occasionally just to take the useless things of the past and delete them. Sometimes you need to delete memories in order to save new ones. None of this is about electronics but the similarities are ironic are they not? Hah I guess a couple of the wires in my heart are broken. They'd have to be cause in all reality these words about the heart will never be spoken

One day...

4:55 AM

As I lay in a dark room I wonder to myself at almost 5 AM, why is life the way it is? Like there's so much I personally wanna know and experience and I know I can't be the only one. So my question is this, with all the things going on in the universe how are we all so wrapped up in such trivial things? Like how can the next person not stare up at the night sky and just wonder? Why do we let our daily lives that are filled with such monotonous things and people that we end up losing sight of the whole picture? I notice myself growing distant as the days pass. Its as if I'm seeing just how pointlessly shallow bonds are with people who you don't see eye to eye with morally and that's okay, every individual is out here coping, living with, or just maintaining in whatever situation life has given them. But rather than try to come together and understand one another we will greedily and selfishly use each other just for even a fleeting moment of whatever feeling were currently chasing at the time. We will destroy an entire persons very being just to help us feel whole if only for a moment. And I'm sorry but that's just a kind of life I don't want to live. I just want to explore the world and see some new colors and scenes maybe even more of the universe. To have someone to do that with would be dope. But as days go by I'm starting to see that the journey can be done alone. And it can still be beautiful..if you let it be.

I dont know why..

I feel so empty today

One day.. Some Day

One day. One day you'll have all that stuff you're longing so badly for. I know we see our days as numbered already and that time is just rushing by. But it'll all come one day. You've endured so much already and I know it sucks. But the strongest endures everything thrown their way. So just keep making your way down your path. Step by painful step... And it'll all be yours..

One Day..