I just want to escape

The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, the sky is blue... by all means it’s technically a beautiful day. But, I feel so empty. I can’t even begin to explain it, this.. this feeling of not feeling. I feel as if I only think about escape. I hate where I live, I hate the people, I hate the smell, I hate it all. I just want to escape. To an island with a woman who cares about me if I ever find one. I just want to escape. To get away from all the things that destroyed me as a person. To be free of all the things weighing me down and reminding me of how stagnant I have become. I just want to escape. To a place where all I worry about is if I need sunglasses today or not. I just want to escape. To hide from all the terrible aspects of this life. I just want to escape. From all the feelings that haunt me both of past and present. I just want to escape. The feeling of being trapped and surrounded by hate. I just want to escape. The impending nature of how lonely I am and will continue to be. I just want to escape. The reality of how little people understand one another and how little they attempt to. I just want to escape. The feeling of obligation I have to those around me when they would never go that same mile for me. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape. I just want to escape....