Je ne suis toujours pas le type à sauver mais

I'm no angel myself. I know I'd corrupt everything about you. I'd probably destroy the person you are there'll be no going back from this kinda plunge. You talk everyday about it as if you're ready for that kinda leap of faith. I'm asking do you think you're strong enough? Asking if you believe you've got the power to make your will become physical phenomena before your very eyes? Or are you another foolish child who swears she's different and can understand where I'm coming from with this state of mind. Im too old for games at this point, I'd like to think you are but I give no one the benefit of the doubt these days. I spent my morning writing about you (both good and bad) after I left your side and I myself can't tell if that's a good or bad sign but I want to find out. You laugh with me about it when I text you or tell you "sell your soul to me and bring me your mind" but little do you know that that is the very least it'll take to shake my doubts about this, whatever this is. Were at in impasse where a definitive answer or label will have to be chosen and I am not sure if that's what I want to do yet. I like it here, unknown, pure. Every days an adventure and every night a mystery that could go any which way and end up something entirely new and different but that all dies when we take the dive.. Only two options become available at that point did it last or not? I hate to limit whatever "this" is to just that. and that's just the beginning dealing with me and the unknown wouldn't be easy but it'd be fun I can promise that! On top of all that is the fact I've come to notice that contrary to what every single person will say people do change over time, would you exposure to me be good for you too? Or would I just break your spirit? Drain you emotionally and wind up back at square one..I don't want that, I've come to love the annoyingly confidence you have in the fact you could make this all worth it, I love seeing you be what I'm looking for from this far.. What if we get closer and see that its not what we thought was there in the first place? I'm sure you'll see this and immediately text or call me after you do ranting and raving "how you can do all this and more and you'll show me" or something along those lines.. And I'll love every moment of it, hell I might even believe you.